happy birthday to me!!

happy 19th birthday to me..

have a nice day my self..

hmm..

thanks for those whose wishing me happy birthday..

thanks for remember me..

a lot of thanks to..

wan muhammad zaqwan b.wan nazhar..

you gave a best wish for me..

you never forget my birthday..

a very thank you..

i miss this moment..

this is my last year cake..

chocolate ice-cream secret recipe cake

thanks a lot friends..

i really appreciate that moment..

i miss all of you..

you all the best ever..

sporting and professional..

very GOOD!

i willing if i can be with all of you together like before..

here and there is to much different..

condition and friends..

and also idea..

i miss people at uitm arau..

i hate august 31, 2010

you are not wishing me a happy birthday

a little thank you

just for the DEGIL one!

for the salam degil that i have sent to you is a very special to you..

please know that I'm not telling something for nothing..

if you are not notice me as your good friend..its OK..

but i want you to know something..

when i express a word, i put the situation on my self..

and I'm thinking..what will happen to me on that situation..

then later i talk to you..

but sometimes people get me wrong..

am i jealous? or I'm trying to destroy your relations?

you already have the answers..

here i want to say a very sorry to you..

all the wrong that i had done..

broken your heart and make you cried..

and maybe you are disappointed with me..

but i always try to do the best for you..

i try to help you..

i keep quite because of you..

i think better for you..

but you never realise..

and maybe that all fault...

but a really thank you..

for being my friend..

and much much thank you..

flowers in the dark..

i just coming from my hometown yesterday..

there are a sad story but i love that moment much..

my beloved Mat Rashid a.k.a abg RASH...are now in the cardiovascular ward..

he look down and very tired..my pity father..my ALLAH bless you..

i love you and i always miss you..

in the sad situation..there are a best moment..

on Saturday fasting..half of my big family berbuka bersama in a ward..

dad who lay on the bed come to sit with us..

i saw his glow eyes showed his happiness..

thanks ALLAH..

and guess who is very2 happy?

Mrs.RASH..he smile and smile and smile..

even she suffer a lot..

thanks mom for take care of my dad..

you the best mother ever...

you do not know what the meaning of tired..

you never think about appreciated..

sacrificed is the only thing crossed your mind..

i want to be like you some day..

and i love you so..

to dad...

i always pray for your healthy..

to mom..

no one can change with u..

last thing..

abg rash really2 happy when he saw me wearing a nurse cap..

that what he want me to be..

that all what i call as..

flowers in the dark..

a call

i really don't enjoy this Ramadan..

a very sad Ramadan for me..

seriously..i feel bad..

i don't want to go home but i don't want to stay here..

i hate this place much!

I HATE!!!

do you feel me?

mum? i miss u.. i do miss u..

you?

give me a call..

show me you care for me..

I'm doing all this because of you..

give me call me when i stop calling you..

I'm in stress..

a very bad situation..

this place don't suite with my soul..

but what can i do..

pushing u to pay rm110000?

if i quiet or run from this place..

yea..i realise this place is good enough for me..

but please help me to stay here...

i need someone to talk to me..

to cry with me..

and understand me...

not just giving me a word "sabar"

please..I'm begging..

help me...

i will

i'm trying hard to give a chicken soup for my soul..

but sometimes i can't keep the warm of soup in my soul..

i dropped a crystals many times..

but i will never give up..

i don't want to be a LOOSER..

even hard even suck n sick..

i will show u who am i..

i'm not just a girl who know to cry..

i will make people proud of me..

where i am..

what im doing...

i will SUCCESS!!

this is my bad fasting ever..seriusly BAD!

Shit!!